My hair is tangled and I'm still in my pajamas. The iced coffee is more like cold water coffee now. I ate a croissant while breastfeeding her, and laughed that she's been trying to talk to me while she eats. It's a muffled hum, with the corners of her mouth pulling into sporadic smiles. I'm … Continue reading First Things First
My Birth Story, Part II: Labor and Delivery
If you missed part I, go read it first! The best way I can describe what a natural birth without pain medications felt like to me is a marathon. If you've ever run a marathon, you know what a muscle cramp feels like, and that you can't think "I can't do this" or overthink about … Continue reading My Birth Story, Part II: Labor and Delivery
My Birth Story, Part I: Pregnancy and War
You wouldn't think the two would go together, pregnancy and war, but oh, they do. From the minute I started even thinking my body might be hosting a new life in the near future, I started preparing. I started taking prenatal vitamins 4 months (yes, pretty much right when we got engaged) before the wedding, … Continue reading My Birth Story, Part I: Pregnancy and War
The Best Year
Chalk it up to God's perfect timing, love, and kindness, but I have had the best year of my entire life thus far. I thought my best years might have been behind me, but how wrong was I to entertain that thought! I looked back and thought maybe my junior year of high school was … Continue reading The Best Year
The Disease of Hatred
I've been silent for months, just being "in my life" and enjoying being engaged and getting married and being a newlywed. My day-to-day home life has been overall very, very positive. I have been overwhelmed with thanksgiving, peace, and love. Then I log on to Facebook and I am bombarded by hatred. I glimpse the … Continue reading The Disease of Hatred
The Last Blog of My Twenties
It's comical how I used to think 30 was the ultimate "grown" age. I thought 30-year-olds were parents, they owned houses, and they had their careers figured out. I thought worldly stability arrived just like that, as the clock hands turned and the calendars changed. It's funny now, honestly. The people who managed to get … Continue reading The Last Blog of My Twenties
Early Spring
Hello, old friend. Here I am, thinking of all the clichés applicable to this comeback moment. I might as well skip trying to state the obvious and move on to what's churning in my soul. I'm sitting at a banquet table, and the Host will not stop putting delicious, much-too-large portions before me. Just when … Continue reading Early Spring
Why I’ve Been Silent
I used to write about once a week, sometimes twice. I also used to write a devotional every single day. All these things went out to a set list of readers, straight to their email inbox. Then life got a bit more complicated for me on the emotional zone. I began to feel that this … Continue reading Why I’ve Been Silent
A Stranger’s Party
Last month, I was invited to a party for a stranger. I was in the middle of doing something else, and the invitation surprised me. I accepted. I found myself sitting at a table, surrounded by people I didn't know. We laughed. I was offered food, and I realized I was really hungry. I ate, … Continue reading A Stranger’s Party
Like Trees
I stood among the crunchiest leaves, surrounding me. I nearly slipped. I looked up and saw the tallest trees, and not one apologized to me. "This is the old," I felt I heard, "and it belongs beneath your feet." Not long ago it gave me shade, and swayed so freely in the breeze. They held … Continue reading Like Trees