God is pulling out of my heart the deep root of striving. It seems common to manufacture our worth with many, many, many tasks so we can feel purposeful. Let's be honest, what kind of people would we be if we got nothing done? We'd be worthless, right? That’s not what God says. We put … Continue reading Striving, Anxiety, and Light
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The Wedding Scoop
I was bursting at the seams with stories from engagement and the wedding, and I think there are a few reasons I shelved them instead of posting them right away. Engagement was a whirlwind, then I was in such a happy blur from the wedding that I needed time to write and process. And then … Continue reading The Wedding Scoop
My Birth Story, Part I: Pregnancy and War
You wouldn't think the two would go together, pregnancy and war, but oh, they do. From the minute I started even thinking my body might be hosting a new life in the near future, I started preparing. I started taking prenatal vitamins 4 months (yes, pretty much right when we got engaged) before the wedding, … Continue reading My Birth Story, Part I: Pregnancy and War
The Best Year
Chalk it up to God's perfect timing, love, and kindness, but I have had the best year of my entire life thus far. I thought my best years might have been behind me, but how wrong was I to entertain that thought! I looked back and thought maybe my junior year of high school was … Continue reading The Best Year
Early Spring
Hello, old friend. Here I am, thinking of all the clichés applicable to this comeback moment. I might as well skip trying to state the obvious and move on to what's churning in my soul. I'm sitting at a banquet table, and the Host will not stop putting delicious, much-too-large portions before me. Just when … Continue reading Early Spring
Why I’ve Been Silent
I used to write about once a week, sometimes twice. I also used to write a devotional every single day. All these things went out to a set list of readers, straight to their email inbox. Then life got a bit more complicated for me on the emotional zone. I began to feel that this … Continue reading Why I’ve Been Silent
I Accept
The love of God. The forgiveness of Jesus. The counsel of the Holy Spirit. I took the quickest moment, in the midst of the anxiety I felt in my stomach, and I whispered a prayer that messed me up. I'm talking snot and tears everywhere. I said "I accept Your forgiveness, Jesus." Apparently that's all … Continue reading I Accept
God Isn’t Willy Wonka
Have you ever found yourself greatly discouraged and flipped through your own notes/pictures/prayers with God, and those scribbles ministered to you? Yep. I'm discovering through a really rough season that my faith in God is a foundation. You can't tear down a wall without running into your foundation. It's incredibly important to solidify your faith, to … Continue reading God Isn’t Willy Wonka
Even Now
I've been quiet because I've been waiting. And while you wait and there are no news, why speak up? There are several parts of my life that have been in transition, unanswered. I've been praying and waiting. I've tried not to complain, or get my hopes up, or become pessimistic. I am writing this right … Continue reading Even Now
Fighting For Peace
There's a fine, dotted line between letting something go and standing up for oneself. It feels like a seesaw, where it's not any fun when you're always letting things go and becoming a bitter pushover, and it's no fun at all to make a fuss over every bump on the road. A wise man once … Continue reading Fighting For Peace
